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[01 Jan 2007|07:36pm] |
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Sometimes people make me absolutely sick. I don't even know how to begin explaining what I mean, so I'll just leave it at that.
Lately I've been hoping like crazy that this year will be better than last year. So much happened last year, and most of it I'd like to be able to forget. Maybe this year I'll be able to get better. Maybe my friends will be able to get better too. Maybe I'll do something worthwile. Maybe I'll learn how to be worthwile. Maybe I'll find something good. Maybe I'll be able to detatch from emotional desires. Maybe the world won't make me so sick.
I'm going to make some changes in my life. Hopefully they'll do something. I'm seeing a new doctor tomorrow and am a little nervous about that. Insurance won't let me see the doctor I've been seeing for the past 7 years. I'm going to try to find a job that I like. There's not much pressure, so maybe it'll actually happen.
I'm not sure what I'll do these next three weeks. That winterim class would have kept me busy, but not busy enough for that kind of isolation. I'm a little sad about not taking it, but mostly relieved and glad that I'll be able to stay here where I have friends and family... maybe I'll be able to get better.
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[19 Dec 2006|04:40pm] |
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They're turning my suite into a boy's suite, so I'm getting kicked out. Wooohoo.
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| Bu leng! Wooo! |
[16 Dec 2006|01:19pm] |
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Hmm, I have a painting to finish and 2.25 huge pages of drawings to do... looks like it's LJ time! Ah, yes.
Took my Chinese final yesterday. I think it went pretty well. I forgot a couple things, but that shouldn't be so bad. Ou Laoshi said I got either an A or and A- on my oral exam. I'm really going to miss taking Chinese. It's really fun.
Next semester I'm taking some awesome classes, but will have no free time 'cause 3 of them are intense studio arts classes.
I miss my Madison friends. I can't wait to come home and see them again. ;_;
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[10 Dec 2006|11:58am] |
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I just farted and it smelled EXACTLY like what I ate for dinner last night.
Dear Cafeteria Food,
I hate you so big it almost hurts.
Sincerely,
Jul!a
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| Zaijian, wo de Ou Laoshi |
[10 Dec 2006|11:25am] |
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Just thought I'd make a humerous entry about the teacher I have a crush on. Yeah, I'm putting off doing homework, wanna fight about it?! XD
He tought his last class for this semester on Friday, and, sadly, I can't continue taking Chinese, so I'll probably never have a class with him again. *emo tear*
Ok, now that you all think I'm totally insane I'll go get dressed and eat. FINE I DON'T NEED YOU GUYS ANYWAY!
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[01 Nov 2006|10:46am] |
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I think I really fucked up this time.
Anyway, last night I thought about this one woman I knew once. I thought about how she'd make some snide comment about me, as though she knew me so well. Then I realized that by thinking this I was having a snide thought about her, as though I knew her so well.
Had a dream about my grandpa last night. It was nice.
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[10 Oct 2006|05:43pm] |
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I really like trees.
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[11 Sep 2006|02:13am] |
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There is only one light on in the West side of the North Tower. In another room a movie is being played.
Icy rain falls at a slant, visible only under streetlamps and the light reflecting off quivering puddles.
These nights are heavy and becoming increasingly cold.
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[09 Aug 2006|08:38pm] |
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So crazy things are happening. Crazy and good. Looks like my summer is starting to look up. (except for the fact that I'm still working at Ace... ugh)
Ok, my turn!
Once you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 5 weird habits/things you do/odd information, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose the next five people to be tagged and list their names.
1) I rip the skin off my fingers around my nails.
2) I enjoy popping pimples
3) I have an uncanny habbit of not dating people who are my age or older.
4) I like to sneeze.
5) I cumpulsively edit things and find typos. (Ok, I stole this from Mary, but I do it too)
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[20 Jul 2006|10:53pm] |
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It's Isa's last night here. It's been really cool having her stay with us. I'm going to miss her and Mary talking in German. I love listening to them. I'm almost glad that it's going to be back to 'normal.' We've been doing a lot of random stuff, going a lot of places and stuff, and it's all pretty tiring. It'll be nice to have time to breathe, clean my room, and spend more time with my friends. Tonight we went to the fair, and that was fun because I got to stuff my face with junk food, flirt with some creepy hick, and play the ducky game. I won an inflatable mace that's pretty awesome. People kept staring at me for some reason. Jeez, you'd think that they've never seen a punked-out 20 year-old swinging an inflatable mace at her friends before. Pfft, crazy hillbillies.
I need to paint Dub-yuh, my paper mache piggy.
Last night I had a dream with Regan (some guy that's been in my class since grade one), and that was strange because I havn't even thought about him in years.
The other night I had a dream where Chris Beaudoin and I were sitting in a huge chair in my basement, just talking and laughing. It was really nice. I miss him, but I don't want to bother him too much. I hope we can be friends when I get back to school. It sucks losing a boyfriend, but it would suck even more to lose such a good friend at the same time.
I'm still cleaning my room, and it seems like I'm moving crap out of here like crazy, but it's still a huge mess. It's pretty frustrating.
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[31 May 2006|05:01pm] |
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I went to see 'V for Vendetta' last night with Kathleen. Holy crap, that's an awesome movie! I'll probably see it again with Droo sometime soon.
Anyway, lately I've been doing a lot of cleaning. I've gotten rid of a huge ammount of my old toys and stuff. It feels kinda strange to be getting rid of things that had such a huge impact on a large portion of my life. It's good to have it all gone, though, so I can have more space for my other stuff. I have a lot of stuff. I don't know where it all came from.
I also boxed up some things that I don't want to see for a while, possibly never again, but I'll figure that out later. I finally got my earring off. I accidentally cut some of the wire off. I didn't want it to come down to that, but I'd feel stupid wearing it now.
I think Fleetwood Mac says it best when they ask: "can I sail through the changing ocean tides? Can I handle the seasons of my life?..."
A Poem:
I remember
when I saw you as human for the first time.
And now I know,
so tear me off your wall
like you do with everyone else
And keep me way in the back
with the tears you won't show.
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[09 Apr 2006|05:38pm] |
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Yay, happy weekend! Christy finally had the time to come and visit me! We had a lot of fun, even though she had a lot of homework to get done. I had some art crap I had to do, so it all worked out. Of course, we stayed up way too late talking about all sorts of things, but it was awesome. It's so awesome how time can pass and then we get together and it seems like nothing's changed. We went to Chris' house last night, and she got to meet all the animals. Of course, Pollux made her really happy. He took to her right away too. It's amazing how animals can tell who's got a good heart and who doesn't. (he pretty much hated Miki, lol) She went to the gallery opening with me on Friday night. Both of our minds were blown by all of the talent that some of these students have. Today we went on a really long walk, mostly consisting of really steep hills and stairs. It was exhausting, but so much fun. I'm really excited about the weather getting nicer. I can actually start to be more active. I hate winter because it's so hard to get yourself to go get some excercise because it's so freakin' cold out. I'm excited because Christy might be coming back again next month. (it'll probably be finals week or something, but it'll still be awesome!)
I'm really happy right now. ^^ Thanks, Christy. You make me happy and strong.
And, Thanks for this, Kirsten!XD :
Wheeee!
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[26 Mar 2006|12:25pm] |
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Back to Milwaukee today.
All in all I had a pretty uneventful break. Most of it was spent trying to get myself well again, which worked for a while, but now I feel like my flu thing may be coming back. >:(
I saw Christy twice, which was good. I've been missing her a lot. I couldn't see Bunny or Drew because this weekend I didn't have access to a car, but next weekend I'll be back to have my braces taken off, and I'll have a car. :D
The most eventful night of the week was probably Friday. My mom got free tickets to go see Stomp from a coworker, so the two of us went together. It was really awesome. Afterwards I went to Christy's and saw Uriah, Morgan, Becca, Andrew, Pren, and some guy I didn't know. It was good to see them all again, and Morgan and Andrew were really happy to see me, which felt good. I miss Morgan, but he's happy in White Water, so he's not coming back to Milwaukee.
It was good to get some rest after such a hectic two weeks at school. I still have a little work to do, though. I'm annoyed with all the schoolwork that I had to do over spring break, but it wasn't as bad as it could have been.
I should probably finish packing. xp
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[17 Mar 2006|10:18pm] |
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There. You guys have made me feel like shit. I hope you're happy. You just drove away one of the only people who actually cared about you.
Now please leave me alone. I don't need this anymore, and I don't want to assosiate myself with hurtful people.
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| Ok, it's time for some angry-pantsing. |
[17 Mar 2006|10:16am] |
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Hmmm... Where shall I start?
How about with that you can't expect someone to change if you don't tell them how. How is someone supposed to know that they need to change if you don't tell them?
Even better, if everything about me bothers you why was it such a big deal that I didn't want to see you anymore?
Ooh, and now for the best part.
You got so mad at Sam for joining the Army for 'a change.' And now... you want to do the same thing? You can't honestly say that I'm a hypocrite when you're pulling shit like this. The best thing, though, is that you think that you'll make it through basic training. This is beyond laughable. You can hardly walk up 4 flights of stairs.
The Army isn't like the movies. You can't talk back to anyone. You're not an idividual. No one cares about what you think. You can't have trendy hair, shoes, or glasses, and yes, ALL of your piercings have to go. It's not a big orgy, it's not a place where you can do whatever you want. You have to get up at 4 in the morning and do hard physical labor all day. Your spoiled, prissy ass wouldn't last more than two days. When you want to give up, guess what, sweet cheeks? you can't. Not even Kinko's can save you from that mess.
Actually, maybe it's not such a bad idea after all. Maybe you'll learn to have some respect and discipline. A good dose of reality is exactly what you need, and this will be more than sufficient.
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| They are just the same. |
[13 Mar 2006|11:16pm] |
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It was really windy out today. That was nice. Almost like extreme breathing.
There was a thunder storm last night and I went on a rain walk. I've forgotten how nice it is to walk. I am impatient this time of the year because it's so close to being nice out, but the weather never wants to cooperate.
I'm glad to turn in my 3D project tomorrow. I can't wait to have that monstrosity out of my face.
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